What a week.. :S

This week is truly a challenging one for me...
Since Monday till today morning, nothing seems to be right -- so I keep thinking, did I not tell myself to be relax and be happy always lately? Have I forgotten how to be happy for a moment? Haih...

When you were giving a responsibility to manage a project -- I would assume that you make all the decision and they will become your mentor... correct? That is what called Project Management. What happened was -- you crack your head analyzing from all angle and make a decision and communicated to everyone and agreed upon. Suddenly this manager step in out of no where (he already agreed earlier) and counter the decision you made -- telling everyone that the outcome should come out by this time instead of the dateline that you have set.. Oh my, I was so pissed off at the moment, frustrated and disappointed at the same time over him.

Given the costing paperwork to 2 managers to check if my write up and every details was correct -- since it is my first time to do this costing. Both of them checked and when I submitted the paperwork to Finance, one of the manager wrote back and told me that there's a mistake in the write up. Oh really? So I ran up to the 28th floor get back the paperwork and amended it. Pheww... then I resubmitted again. After a while, the other manager said to me, there's a mistake again. I ran up and get back the paperwork again and amended it again. This time I kindly requested her to help me check through if there's anything else we overlook. The manager said, everything looks fine. So I walked back up again and resubmitted to Finance again.
What a joke! The next morning, the first manager wrote to me again saying that there's a mistake again! What the hell are you guys trying to do to me? I have to run up and down for it and luckily the Finance manager was around. Guys, dont you know that this will make me look bad? Unorganized? Not careful in preparing my costing? How would I suppose to know how to calculate TIR that is why I learned, did it and let you guys to check and you guys keep on saying nothing wrong then amend something then nothing wrong and amend something with it again. I can go nuts!

These managers who I need their approval on the paperwork will go on leave anytime this month -- to clear up their leaves. So I get this manager to do us a favor, you review and sign then put on your table since you are travelling next week onwards. He called this morning and asked me "You dont know how to do it in one page ka? No one teach you?" What the... If I knew and if there's anyone telling me that it has to be on a one pager thing -- what the heck should i go and do in 2 pages instead? If my write up was so long and a lot to justify the costing -- if I shrink it into a page, it would be too small for review, it would look brainless and unprofessional, why do I wanted to do that?
Sometimes I would say these people do not know how to talk properly or use their words properly with people they are working with. Human management failed though you are said to be a manager.

It is important to know different people have to be approached differently. Was so hard to be understood?

Somehow I dont care anymore how you manage your people but please just dont pick on me and start bullying me. I had done more at work compare to any of your so called permenant staffs but still I am in the position I am.

What a week.. everything doesnt seems right. Work, relationship and family.. darn, what have go wrong? I cant even sleep well the whole week and cried few times.. OMG...

Hate all this but what to do, it's life :S

Wish next week will be better.. :S

Love,
Shin

It's coming! It's coming! :)

Am so happy when I got the email notification from the company that they are shipping my christmas gift for someone will be arriving soon to KL.

Cant wait to get it and give it to him... Really do hope he'll like it :)

He's been away for 3 days now.. hope he's doing fine there with the scary weather (o degree celcius :S)...

Love,
Shin :)

Off he goes to UK :S

My dear just left for UK yesterday night -- His parents and I were there to send him off. How miserable was my heart at that moment, worrying will he be ok over there for a long month. I knew he would take care, just worried if suddenly he will be too 'gang hor' at some events :P
While I was driving back from KLIA -- tried hard to control myself from shedding any tears and I kept telling myself that he will be back soon, just be patience :)

Woke up in the morning and the first thing I remember to do is to write him an email :) Tried hard to remember his yahoo email, but failed (temporary memory loss again :S) so I decided to wrote to his hotmail instead :P
After click on the send button and done everything... I realized he has a simple blog too...

It made me sad when I read through all the postings as he sounded sad everytime... which I hope that i can help or even not becoming the cause of it. Sometimes, I wish I can tell him that I love him the way he is, but there are things in our live which is not good or negative, we have to try hard to change it and leave it behind... It is these effort taken that will determine how far can we go. No point of loving someone but there's no growth within you to become a better person.

I guess everyone have their ups and downs and I believe both of us are going through the same thing daily -- we might be pissed off by someone, something or whatever and then that made our day... How important it is for us to realize what's wrong and then mend our life back before it got worse.

Seriously, I was crying when I got to read his blog. To sense the unhappiness he had previously and later in our relationship -- all because after my birthday. It was after my birthday that things exploded within me all because I was having so much expectations over him. Now I knew I shouldnt, so I just tell myself that, birthday is just a normal day, dont make a big fuss about it and make yourself and others unhappy. Celebrated or not celebrated will not be an issue anymore. If someone remembers or have a special plan for you on your birthday, then it's a blessing. If not? You wont die either, life still goes on...

I wonder how he is now in his flight... 2 more hours and he'll reach London... Hope the weather is ok there :S
May God bless him everyday :)

Love,
Shin :)

Unexpected visitors :)

Don't ever bother what people write about their life as it is not yours... why you wanted to bother so much about it if it doesn't relate to you or... are you admitting that you are the culprit?? :)

Someone just left some comments over here few weeks ago... and doesn't even understand the words he r she's trying to say as people without an identity if just plain to be ignored.

Suspects:

1. Some angry people who are struck by jealousy on something that they cant do..
2. Some past acquaintances who had betrayed me and now are dissatisfied over things written which he will never admit
3. Some childish people who has nothing better to do..

Done.. have to go back and work on my project. Need to travel to Penang next Monday.
May God bless the bastard!

Love,
Shin

So called father.. I had enough!

From the moment my mum told me what had happened -- I hate him for the rest of my life.
He has not been a good father since we were born -- been abusing my mum since they got married, left us 6 years ago and now, he's back doing more harm to mum.

I cant believe he has not realized his mistakes and all the sins he had got himself into and now he is making me hating him more. He's trying to sell off the house in Raub and get rid of my mum from there.

I swore to myself, when the day comes and he's dying, I will not even step into his grave -- perhaps this is my biggest sin but I had enough of this idiot man treating my mum this way, making her sad every time.

Lost moment :S

Felt so sluggish today -- from the point I woke up from a short nap just now. Felt tired and refused to get up but looking at those magazines piling up on the floor, I know I have to get up and get ride of them today :S

Miss mum so terribly today -- maybe because that this bad daughter has realized that she hasnt been spending much quality time with the mother lately. Although I called home often, 3 to 4 times a week but those phone calls were nothing when I went home over the weekend and spent time with her :)
Something hits me hard and I told myself that I will spend more time with her after this and make her happier.. I love you mom :)

It's been a very quiet week since last Monday till today -- for me. Guess it is a moment for my head to relax and get hold of some reality for myself.. Time for me to think over things in my life at the moment and determine what I really wanted and what can I achieve..

Had some bad dreams lately -- chased by a big snakes, arguments with Kent, mom was sick, I died in accident and etc... not forgetting few dreams related to my ex (Oh, the point is, whenever a dream has his appearance, I consider it as a bad dream -- why in the world / hell do you still wanted to dream about those human being? :S)

Going back to work tomorrow... cant wait to do some testing with Brazil, Czech Republic and Dubai... Another day :)

Have to get back some inspiration to work and write :)

Love,
Shin :S

I'm 24! :)

"May I know who is Kylee? Here are some flowers for her"
I heard a lady asking Susan and in her hands were some beautiful pink roses.

I was on the phone with Tonny (vendor) and couldnt walked over to receive the flowers... My heart was actually pumping fast and in my mind was actually asking "Could it be him?"... "I hope it's from him..." but then after a few seconds, my logical sense kicks in and tells me that -- that would be impossible. Right after this realization, I thought of 2 things -- 1. The flowers must be from Madam Vachala and 2. It reminds me of the red and pink roses that Ricardo (PH) sent me on his birthday last November... :)

I didnt really check out the flower as Anum brought it over to my desk... I just let it lay down there on the table -- I do not want to be too 'kecoh' about it, scared it will somehow generates some envy or jealousy around the office. I just keep it low... Still I was a bit disappointed looking at the flowers.. Then I tell myself -- stop thinking too much and hope nor expect too much..

So, hereby I would like to share with you my blessings for the year -- 24 years old birthday blessings and love from people around me.

Sree's Birthday wish says "stay the same -- stay the way you are coz you are the best the way you are now" --- Thanks Sree! :)

My 1st present from Sree -- around 11am (11th Sept 09) he called me to complained that I sent him too much emails. He requested me to go over to his cubicle and explain to him on some of the emails before he goes on leave. I reached there and taa daa! Surprise! He handed me this present with a Kinokuniya plastic bag -- hehe, he knew I love books :)

Went back home and I waited till it was 12am (12th Sept 09 -- my birthday) then I opened the present from Sree and guess what! It's a joke book! Love it so much.
Sree says in his card "Hope you'll laugh your butt out!"
Wakakaka...

My 2nd present -- 11th Sept 09, at nite after work almost the whole department were hanging out at a bistro in Glenmarie -- Eat Work-Shop. We were having fun snacking, drinking and laughing throughout the whole nite when it was around 9.40pm... Surprise!
The waiter carried a small cake out! It was so pretty with a dark chocolate plate saying "Happy Birthday Shin!" Thanks guys for making my day! Love ya all so much!

Everyone sang the birthday song to me and I make a wish!
"I wish I will be able to be in this DHL Family after my 6 months contract end -- this time stays as a permenant employee and I AM GONNA CLIMB THE LADDER UP!!!!"
Hehehe... and my 2nd wish was to be happy always and to be care free no matter what..
My 3rd wish -- my mom will always stays healthy and happy and safe back in Raub
My 4th wish -- Hope my dear will always be happy and doing well in everything that he's indulging in.
God Bless everyone! :)

The silly Wilfred was wishing me to get an Indian boyfriend soon... OMG :P

After 3 days my birthday has passed by -- today (15th Sept 09) I received a special surprise from Vachala. A bouquet of pink roses.
OMG.. Madam... you scared me :P
Still I am very blessed and grateful to have someone who sayang me so much in the office.
Thanks a million Madam :)

Nanta forced me to take a photo with the roses and he said I look like a tikus mondok (in my FB).
At least a photo for my memory... :)

The special birthday card from everyone in the department.
Thanks guys!
Love ya all!

Well, that is it. I am glad that for this birthday I am still manage to have a few photos for remembrance... :)

Love

Bye Bye Tabbee... :(

I cant stop myself from crying once I got the news from Andy..
"Halo, Andy? So did you manage to find Tabbee??"

There's a pause in my heart when I was asking this to Andy as I am really afraid of what I will hear from Andy soon....
"Tabbee fell down. Dead d....."
My heart stop for a moment -- I couldn't accept what I heard... He's only 2 months old...

I was looking forward to come home after work to play with this little fella.. Part of me were saying that, if I could come home earlier, he might not have fell... Suddenly, I have lost a little buddy to play with, a friend who would cheer me up after a tired day at work..

I started crying in the car... when I reached the car park, I couldn't stop myself from thinking of him, his little cute and adorable face... I couldn't stop myself from imagining how he had fall from the balcony.. oh my god...

Get into the house, I cant forget his little cute paws stepping out from the corner of the hall and ran towards me as if he's been waiting for me to get home and play with him. I still remembered the time I was playing hide and seek with him around the sofa... It was still fresh in my mind of the way he looked at me this morning when I was drying my clothes... His eyes just sparkles and a cute smile.. And now he's gone already...

I miss him so much... :'(
Tabbee....

In grieve..
Shin :'(

Tabbee -- The new member in the house :)

Went for rock climb at Damai today around 8.30am and I only managed to climb for 2 routes. I had never been there since my last trip 6 months ++ ago and it sort of thrilled me today to be there again. Unfortunately, bad enough, I didn't manage to finish any of the routes as my arms tires easily... shall try again next round :)

It's good to have a cat at home now -- Tabbee -- my bro in law bought him for MYR700 and he's only 2 months old.. :)


It feels great to play with him because no matter how bad the day you had outside with people around you, you come back home and see him sitting here looking at you innocently -- ready to have some fun with you -- all my worries and unhappiness gone away. Its true, I really do love animals especially cats and dogs as they will never abandon me no matter what and I will never feel lonely with them around -- not as complicated and troublesome as human being... :)

Love,
Shin :)

Reflecting on Life

Since a couple of weeks before, I checked my mailbox almost everyday... the result = no news from any company yet! Erm... this really torn down my faith and motivation to work -- I know I know... I have to be patience and keep my eyes open, but sometimes, I get tired too being in this situation. I have no doubt that I am performing in my work now but I just dont understand why they prefer to retain people who generates such negative energy to the working environment and team rather than keeping me in the circle? I am definately have no doubt on my working performance or attitude towards colleagues.. but it just amazed me sometimes...

Surin texted me last Friday night saying that although Yasmin has rejected my contract renewal but they (Surin and the other managers) are still trying to keep me. To be honest that night I could harldy sleep though I told everyone that I just read his message around 2am.. I lied somehow.. after reading his text, his short text message which should made me feel relieve or convince that they still havent give up on me.. instead, it caused me to have so much bad dreams that night..
I wasnt as peaceful anymore as I think I am...

Inside of me, I am crying already -- thinking why life must be so harsh on me in everything I do. But my head is telling me I have to stay positive and be strong -- not to let anyone under estimate myself as they have yet to know who I am. I have to have faith in what I am going through now and I have to remind myself that I am blessed to have such wonderful people around me that had helped me so much through this hard time...

Kenneth, Mr.Zul, Surin, Nanta, Kwan, Beckz -- Thanks a lot guys! I really appreciate the help in looking out jobs for me.. I owe u guys a big one! :)

So much happened lately in the office -- all about human relationship management :P
What clever moves is it to keep yourself comfortable around people you are working with and as well as what is the strategy to keep people around you comforatble working with you without causing you trouble and hassle and in the same time enable you to perform.. these are really interesting things to discuss about as I believe everyone has their own thoughts on this :)

Yesterday was Uncle Stephen and Bro Jea Farn's Birthday! Happy Birthday!
The day before yesterday was Kenneth's dad's Birthday! Happy Birthday Uncle Chan! :P
The day before again was Evon's ROM (Marriage Registration) -- Congrats sis!


So much happened around me... and it's interesting...
Let me post up some of my happy memories in DHL soon in my future blogs to let you know why it's sad for me to leave... :(

Love ya all so much! God bless!

Love,
Shin :)

Swimming? Erm....

"Should I go down or shouldn't I?" -- This was the only question bothering me at the moment... Okay okay, you must be thinking going down to where (I'm sure if Arujun heard this, his mind would be fantasizing something else :P)... I was thinking whether to go down to the swimming pool or not..

The fact is that "I do not know how to swim" and this fact has been killing me for years :S Self confidence I guess what the reason that till now I am still lost with this sport :P
No no, not because of the swimwear -- I don't bother how people will look at me also as I dont look that bad what :P... Self confidence here would refer to the lack of confidence on myself in taking up and learning it -- then on how people look and think when they see you holding that swimming board at this age :P

I know I know, learning of course I cant be shy with all these but just cant help it :)
I will go down later and I hope I wont get myself drown ... :S

Love,
Shin (scared of water... joking! :P)

I wanna be happy :)

Everyday you wake up and wondering what's ahead that you'll be facing. You blink your eyes for a few times not knowing that you have wasted a few seconds of your life sitting there being confused and grumpy.

Get up and touch the sky with your hand... even you cant reach that high yet, keep trying and you'll reach it sooner or later.. I wanna smile my way through it.. :) God bless..

Love,

Shin :)

A Tribute -- Yasmin Ahmad

As you sit down and recall back those special ads you watch over the years during festive seasons, you hardly notice who was the creative mind behind all those stories -- the stories that touches each and every of our heart. This time around, we have lost another great life story teller, Yasmin Ahmad..


Tributes were everywhere -- over the radio, television, blogs and social networking sites.. As the DJ were reading out tributes from the public, I cant stop my tears from flowing when each and every of those words bring back such a great amount of memories that I once had and the feeling that I used to and still having whenever I watch all her movies and ads.. She's one of a kind..

Colors of skin and culture should never be the boundaries for us to live together, t share life together, to cry together and yet to grow old together... What if you are a Chinese, Malay or Indian -- does the difference in the races and skin colors make you any lesser than a normal human being?

I am blessed to have wonderful friends around me and guess what, all of them are from different races... I have Dilla -- my close friend who I can share my feelings and thoughts with. I have Ramesh, Ken Mee and Lee Ming -- who we grew up together with. I have Mr.Zul -- who has never give up on me and giving me all the support he could all the time. I have Surin -- my boss who will never forget to appreciate each and everything you do. I have Yen -- who has been there for me for the past years where I had a unsupportive relationship. I have Lydia -- who was there whenever I needed a company. I have Kwan -- who I can bully all the time and at the same time being bullied by him too :) I have Ricardo -- who always believe in me and have me in his memory.. and now I have Ken -- who always accept the way I am and love me for who I am...

I have a lot to write today but the smell of my Aunt's cooking just made me lost in my own 'food' fantasy world... stomach is growling...

Lirik Pergi - Aizat (OST Talentime)

Sayu terpisah
hikayat indah kini hanya tinggal sejarah
berhembus angin rindu
begitu nyamannya terhidu wangian kasihmu
hujan lebat mencurah kini
bagaikan tiada henti
kaulah laguku kau irama terindah
tak lagi kudengari
kau pergi.. pergi..
sepi tanpa kata
terdiam dan kaku tak daya kau kulupa
apa pun kata mereka
biarkan kenangan berbunga di ranting usia

Love all of you so much...
Shin :)

Shape Putrajaya Run :)

Oh... Just woke up after almost 9 hours of sleep -- recovery from the exhaustion I had from yesterday run :P
I was participating in the Fun Run (non-competitive) which is 5km and I manage to complete it in 32 mins -- erm.. 5 minutes of improvement from my gym record :) Was thinking should I train more to improve my endurance and stamina or should I upgrade to 10km? One thing for sure, my mind wasn't strong enough yet and this is the part I have to take care of first :P

Kenneth and the others were running in the 11.5km and Kenneth manage to complete it under 1 hour and 10 mins (a timing for a sick person - fever - not bad not bad) and I'm proud of him.. Faeez and the others did more than 1 hour and 20 mins :)

Ok ok... I need to brush my teeth and bath then... maybe continue to sleep again? wahahahaha :P

Love ya all... :)

Love,
Shin :)

Just Plain Lousy... :(

I miss my hometown buddies but none willing to make some free time for me..
When I said that I am upset -- I was again put to blame..
I blame myself for caring so much for them -- be there for them when they need someone to talk to..
But when it's my time -- who do I turn to?

Lousy,
Shin :(

Had fun --> Ouch!

Another though week searching for job... My Maxis application has once again (the first time was during my internship) being rejected -- damn! :S

Am now awaiting the others to respond while browsing through more... life is so difficult sometimes.. guess this is the challenge that I need to go through before anything that will come waving at me with a smile :)

Went to FRIM on Saturday and it was indeed a great outdoor day I had for quite a long time. Reason why I enjoyed it so much was because the fact that we (me and the gang) managed to snap a lot of photos -- crazy and sweet photos that is :)

These are things that will remind all of us of the fun of exploring a whole new world with friends and also new friends that you got to know while exploring :) Ken Mee followed us to FRIM last saturday too and I was glad he did. There was a bit of complains about others delaying the trekking up to the canopy walk and what I would say to him was -- "Bro, chill and relax. Have fun. This is not a competition." -- Whenever I am travelling in a group, I tends to make sure everything is happy and OK. Guess those who always thinking of reaching as the first or leaving the others behind would reflect something in their life -- how they are going to deal and take care of their love ones around them.. Key word for the day -- be patience :P

Then on Sunday, Kenneth and I joined Siew's team at the Skytrex, Bukit Cahaya -- It's something like flying fox and obstacles way up high (around 15 to 20 meters from the ground) :) Of course, we had fun there but the excitement and fun I had there was not as good as the FRIM -- I get to know new friends but the Skytrex I wasnt introduce to much people :) Oh, nvm...

Another boring morning... My tentative for today would be:

1. Skype and disturb Dilla


2. Skype and disturb Anum


3. Skype and disturb Susan


4. Waiting for Kenneth to Skype :P


5. Finishing up my to-do-list for the day


6. Copy the applications discussion outcome from the white board -- must do today!


7. Thinking and strategize for Restaurant City :P


8. Eating eating and eating (miss Ramlee burger d :(... )


9. Think of what else to do...
   
   

Till then all.. Shall post more photos in here over the weekend as the connection was way lousy in the evening till midnight time :S

Wish me all the best of getting a job ya. Pray pray pray....

Love,

Shin :)

Sleepy -- a quick one :P

Lately been having a very weird feeling -- I kept thinking of giving up on things that I am having or doing now -- no matter it's work, relationship, interest, family or anything...
Dont know what caused me to felt this way but I really do hope it goes away soon enough... :S

At last! Manage to get Mr.Zul online... haih, it's never easy to get the opportunity to chat with him -- at times I thought he had forgotten me and had become best buddies with my ex :S Hehehehe... sorry ler I pikir camni.. cant help it la bro :P

Going for jungle trekking tomorrow at FRIM. Who's joining? Let me see -- Zul and his 5 other friends, Shin Khai, Kenneth, Ker Soon and Ken Mee :)
So, today's entry would just be a short one as I am heading to bed already... nite nite guys!

KD -- rindu akak la... meh la keluar sama sama next time... jgn pergi dah kenduri... penat jer :P wakakaka

Kwan -- you book ticket d or not???!!!!

Love & sleepy,
Shin :P

Moody moody...

Waking up in the morning with a cloudy mood in my head -- Keep asking myself why is it so hard to get over what people said or commented about you. Sometimes, when people said something to you and it's funny and make others luagh -- I would consider it as a joke! But when you said something to a person and the others not even dare to say a word or they just laugh within themselves -- Shouldnt that sounds more like an insult or what I say "stupid" f***ing joke?

Okay --- actually I woke up around 4am... Dont know what to do, so I went online, the connection was slow so I decided to do my laundry. It took me around 15 minutes with it then I though I can get back to sleep -- I CANT FALL ASLEEP! Tossing around from left to right and to left again, but my mind just seemed so blur and I just couldnt sleep till 6.15am when I started to feel sleepy again :S
Try texting but guess the person was sleeping soundly too as there's no reply -- or maybe my text message no longer wake that person up anymore..
What a miserable morning I had -- but it shouldnt stop me from having a great day ahead :)

Lately I had been thinking about getting a job as soon as possible that it made me stress up again :S It's just so hard to get a single reply from those vacancies that you are interested in... God bless me and I really do need a lot of moral support and motivation from people and things around me... gotten kinda sensitive lately due to this -- trying to get my mind free every weekend. Hope no one will piss me off during this difficult time around -- if I could put on a smiley face and you still piss me off -- OMG, I couldnt imagine what will come out from my mouth or I wont even talk to that person already...

Arrggghhhhh!!!!!
K.D, I tengah bengang nie!!! Camne nie...?? Bila nak gi gila gila ngan Shin nie? I nak ambik gambar banyak banyak la.. :S

Kwan Wai Pang -- I tell you ar, you better book your ticket next week to come over KL, or else ... hehehehe...

Need to start work d... gambate to myself and hope the day ahead is promising enough and brings happiness.. :)

Love,
Shin :)

What does a woman lies a lot about?

Just got home from a jog at Taman Aman -- today the 5 rounds were so easy, no difficulty at all, was thinking is it because of the iPod that helped? Maybe :) Good thing though so next time I shall put my iPod on and RUN! :P

Was listening to the Fly.FM Rush Hour this evening and the topic that Jules and Prem brought up was "What do women lie most about?" -- Some callers called in and said things which were quite expected such as -- age, weight, relationship status and blah blah blah...
For me, there is one thing that women lie most about -- our feelings. We often cared so much about the things around us, especially how people look and judge us that we tend to say things to please people around at times which we dont really feel that way. Maybe some of you can say that this sounds hiprokrit but it's true. Men do the same too but perhaps no as critical as ladies do. :)

So, I asked myself -- "What did I lied about recently?"... Most of it was a sin that I lied to my mom when she asked me where was I over the weekend.. I was -- the truth = went hiking with Kenneth -- the lie = I was out watching movie :S
The reason behind this was when everytime I share with her what I was doing over the weekend, she was not being supportive and happy for the things I do. I dont find hiking or climbing wrong for any reasons as long as I take good care of my safety and I go with someone I can count on. It wasnt a bad thing nor a crime but.. she just worried without reasons and start accusing me for something that I did not do -- which sometimes, it made me reluctant to share with her what I gone through with work and friends anymore... Sometimes you just hope a person would just listen and be supportive and trust you.. This was something that which I said that we, overall no matter what gender, would lead us to lie...

I used to share these experiences of where I went and who I met or what I do with Uncle Stephen and Auntie Yong or maybe sometimes friends like Kwan or Lydia or Dilla... but lately everyone just seems so quiet... I miss uncle and auntie already.. Lydia also... it's been almost a few months we never see each other... haih :S

Sometimes, women tend to lie how they feel when people ask them "Are you feeling ok?" -- reason being was we tend to prove that we are strong and tough, very often forgetting that we are not as strong and tough as men --> which is the fact! We do not wanted to be look down in any way by the other sex as we had been said to be the 'fragile' one and been judge as the least important.. That's another reason why women lie about their feelings :)

When being asked "Are you ok, or is there something wrong?" -- I tend to answer that everything is fine, although sometimes it was hurting inside or was feeling confused. The reason from me would be -- the less word being spoken, the less harm done. Sometimes, you just never know how that person would react to your answer for that "Are you ok, or is there something wrong?" type of question... Sometimes, I keep silent and try to imagine or think how that person would react to each and every words I would say later on (managing the expectation) -- will that person be calm enough to listen to the problems I am having? Will that person be supportive enough to give good advise / solutions with a logical and positive attitude? Will that person be caring enough to just listen and give me a pat on my back (or a hug from someone that I love) without uttering a word and just figure out the solutions he / she can think of later? Will that person just be darn emotional and start stumping his / her feet in front of me or start screaming her lungs out at me when I said how I feel? Will each of my words that truly came from the heart breaks the friendship or relationship? -- these are all the concerns...

That's why I can truly tell everyone here that I am a person who is very careful with my words -- the politness and proper words to be used with different people.. I do not like rudeness, every words used against me is something that I used to judge a person -- whether he or she is mature enough, still childish, emotional, kepohchi or etc...

That's why some friends always said that I might look talkative or quiet at times, but beware as I am observing... hahaha... this was said by my close friends back in hometown... maybe or maybe not... They said that I am a dangerous creature... Dangerous creature but still want to hangout with me... Who is crazier and dangerous then? :P Hahahaha

My hair at last -- SHORT! It reminds me f my Form 2 photo... I look exactly like that age.. OMG! Surprisingly, Kenneth said that I look cute (blushing) and mom said I look better with this haircut :P
Thank u thank u !

Nite everyone... I planned to go in to office very early tomorrow, maybe around 6.30am.. so I need to have my beauty sleep now :P

Aih... miss my dear d.... :P

Love,
Shin :P

Broga Hill Hike (Saturday) -- Cancelled! :P

Yesterday morning supposed to be the day for our Broga Hill hike -- me and Kenneth of course.. Too bad that suddenly it rained in the morning and when we reached there (after we got lost in the Semenyih town for a while), OMG there were so many cars around -- a lot of people were hiking on that day. Furthermore the sky was getting darker and darker... We decided to camcelled the hiking plan for the day and go for a Morib excursion trip! :P

Before we go to Morib, we dropped by at the Putrajaya new sports centre -- I was feeling a bit 'itchiness' with my legs and hands d since the hiking was cancelled in the morning so I was joking to hike up those little man-made hills in Putrajaya... We were laughing about that silly idea till we came to the sports centre look-out point!
We stopped the car by the road side and guess what! We climb up the hill using the drainage and the slopes with slippers! I was thinking -- people sure say this people went nuts and got nothing else better to do -- but I can tell you that, I enjoyed it a lot. Though it's something simple but the fun of doing it (of course it's not against the law) and sharing that fun with someone you love is great! Hope Kenneth enjoyed it too :P

The we head to Morib -- on the way, Kenneth said he wish to have banana for snacks while on our way driving to Morib. We passed a makcik stall selling bananas and I was confidently telling him that there will be another (maybe a lot more) such stalls in front -- he were doubting so we have a bet :P
After some few kilometres, at last, there's a run down stall selling bananas... RM 1 for 1kg = CHEAP! I do not know what this type of banana called but it was nice and sweet. We finished the whole bunch by the time we reached Morib :P


Overall our journey yesterday was like this:

My house --> 7 Eleven for 100 Plus and mineral water --> Char Siu Pau Shop, nyum nyum :P --> Semenyih (got lost :P) --> Broga Hill (cancelled coz raining) --> Petronas Toilet :P --> Putrajaya Sports Centre --> Putrajaya Sports Center Look Out Point (which we were planning to fake it as the Broga Hill peak :P heheheh) --> Morib beach --> Tanjung Sepat bridge --> Bagan Lalang beach --> Tanjung Sepat SeaFood Restaurant for lunch --> Tanjung Sepat Pau Shop, nyum nyum --> Dong Zen Temple (superb beautiful) --> Sunway (bath) --> The Curve, Home Deco fair :) --> Back to home! --> Room's door was lock from within --> no key can open it --> BREAK the door knob --> a night rest without a door knob :S

Energy level -- Start journey 7am =98%
Energy level -- End of journey 10.30pm = 5%
Hahahahaha

I shall post our journey yesterday with more interesting storylines soon... now I need to bath and head back to Raub :P

Love,
Shin :P