Off he goes to UK :S

My dear just left for UK yesterday night -- His parents and I were there to send him off. How miserable was my heart at that moment, worrying will he be ok over there for a long month. I knew he would take care, just worried if suddenly he will be too 'gang hor' at some events :P
While I was driving back from KLIA -- tried hard to control myself from shedding any tears and I kept telling myself that he will be back soon, just be patience :)

Woke up in the morning and the first thing I remember to do is to write him an email :) Tried hard to remember his yahoo email, but failed (temporary memory loss again :S) so I decided to wrote to his hotmail instead :P
After click on the send button and done everything... I realized he has a simple blog too...

It made me sad when I read through all the postings as he sounded sad everytime... which I hope that i can help or even not becoming the cause of it. Sometimes, I wish I can tell him that I love him the way he is, but there are things in our live which is not good or negative, we have to try hard to change it and leave it behind... It is these effort taken that will determine how far can we go. No point of loving someone but there's no growth within you to become a better person.

I guess everyone have their ups and downs and I believe both of us are going through the same thing daily -- we might be pissed off by someone, something or whatever and then that made our day... How important it is for us to realize what's wrong and then mend our life back before it got worse.

Seriously, I was crying when I got to read his blog. To sense the unhappiness he had previously and later in our relationship -- all because after my birthday. It was after my birthday that things exploded within me all because I was having so much expectations over him. Now I knew I shouldnt, so I just tell myself that, birthday is just a normal day, dont make a big fuss about it and make yourself and others unhappy. Celebrated or not celebrated will not be an issue anymore. If someone remembers or have a special plan for you on your birthday, then it's a blessing. If not? You wont die either, life still goes on...

I wonder how he is now in his flight... 2 more hours and he'll reach London... Hope the weather is ok there :S
May God bless him everyday :)

Love,
Shin :)