So called father.. I had enough!

From the moment my mum told me what had happened -- I hate him for the rest of my life.
He has not been a good father since we were born -- been abusing my mum since they got married, left us 6 years ago and now, he's back doing more harm to mum.

I cant believe he has not realized his mistakes and all the sins he had got himself into and now he is making me hating him more. He's trying to sell off the house in Raub and get rid of my mum from there.

I swore to myself, when the day comes and he's dying, I will not even step into his grave -- perhaps this is my biggest sin but I had enough of this idiot man treating my mum this way, making her sad every time.

Lost moment :S

Felt so sluggish today -- from the point I woke up from a short nap just now. Felt tired and refused to get up but looking at those magazines piling up on the floor, I know I have to get up and get ride of them today :S

Miss mum so terribly today -- maybe because that this bad daughter has realized that she hasnt been spending much quality time with the mother lately. Although I called home often, 3 to 4 times a week but those phone calls were nothing when I went home over the weekend and spent time with her :)
Something hits me hard and I told myself that I will spend more time with her after this and make her happier.. I love you mom :)

It's been a very quiet week since last Monday till today -- for me. Guess it is a moment for my head to relax and get hold of some reality for myself.. Time for me to think over things in my life at the moment and determine what I really wanted and what can I achieve..

Had some bad dreams lately -- chased by a big snakes, arguments with Kent, mom was sick, I died in accident and etc... not forgetting few dreams related to my ex (Oh, the point is, whenever a dream has his appearance, I consider it as a bad dream -- why in the world / hell do you still wanted to dream about those human being? :S)

Going back to work tomorrow... cant wait to do some testing with Brazil, Czech Republic and Dubai... Another day :)

Have to get back some inspiration to work and write :)

Love,
Shin :S

I'm 24! :)

"May I know who is Kylee? Here are some flowers for her"
I heard a lady asking Susan and in her hands were some beautiful pink roses.

I was on the phone with Tonny (vendor) and couldnt walked over to receive the flowers... My heart was actually pumping fast and in my mind was actually asking "Could it be him?"... "I hope it's from him..." but then after a few seconds, my logical sense kicks in and tells me that -- that would be impossible. Right after this realization, I thought of 2 things -- 1. The flowers must be from Madam Vachala and 2. It reminds me of the red and pink roses that Ricardo (PH) sent me on his birthday last November... :)

I didnt really check out the flower as Anum brought it over to my desk... I just let it lay down there on the table -- I do not want to be too 'kecoh' about it, scared it will somehow generates some envy or jealousy around the office. I just keep it low... Still I was a bit disappointed looking at the flowers.. Then I tell myself -- stop thinking too much and hope nor expect too much..

So, hereby I would like to share with you my blessings for the year -- 24 years old birthday blessings and love from people around me.

Sree's Birthday wish says "stay the same -- stay the way you are coz you are the best the way you are now" --- Thanks Sree! :)

My 1st present from Sree -- around 11am (11th Sept 09) he called me to complained that I sent him too much emails. He requested me to go over to his cubicle and explain to him on some of the emails before he goes on leave. I reached there and taa daa! Surprise! He handed me this present with a Kinokuniya plastic bag -- hehe, he knew I love books :)

Went back home and I waited till it was 12am (12th Sept 09 -- my birthday) then I opened the present from Sree and guess what! It's a joke book! Love it so much.
Sree says in his card "Hope you'll laugh your butt out!"
Wakakaka...

My 2nd present -- 11th Sept 09, at nite after work almost the whole department were hanging out at a bistro in Glenmarie -- Eat Work-Shop. We were having fun snacking, drinking and laughing throughout the whole nite when it was around 9.40pm... Surprise!
The waiter carried a small cake out! It was so pretty with a dark chocolate plate saying "Happy Birthday Shin!" Thanks guys for making my day! Love ya all so much!

Everyone sang the birthday song to me and I make a wish!
"I wish I will be able to be in this DHL Family after my 6 months contract end -- this time stays as a permenant employee and I AM GONNA CLIMB THE LADDER UP!!!!"
Hehehe... and my 2nd wish was to be happy always and to be care free no matter what..
My 3rd wish -- my mom will always stays healthy and happy and safe back in Raub
My 4th wish -- Hope my dear will always be happy and doing well in everything that he's indulging in.
God Bless everyone! :)

The silly Wilfred was wishing me to get an Indian boyfriend soon... OMG :P

After 3 days my birthday has passed by -- today (15th Sept 09) I received a special surprise from Vachala. A bouquet of pink roses.
OMG.. Madam... you scared me :P
Still I am very blessed and grateful to have someone who sayang me so much in the office.
Thanks a million Madam :)

Nanta forced me to take a photo with the roses and he said I look like a tikus mondok (in my FB).
At least a photo for my memory... :)

The special birthday card from everyone in the department.
Thanks guys!
Love ya all!

Well, that is it. I am glad that for this birthday I am still manage to have a few photos for remembrance... :)

Love