Our memories are sealed in our heart that none can reach. Memories do mean a lot to us - it can be pretty pictures flashing through our mind everytime we think of it, or it can be something that we’re trying hard to forget each day. No matter what it is, we live with it till we die whether we like it or not. 'Souvenirs de la Vie' means, 'Memories of Life' and I hope every of my memories with every of your existence in my life will be shared and not hidden. "Sourire Toujours!' - Smile Always! :)
Just got back from the gym and I pity myself so much... As if I had grew old so fast that I couldn't run as I did before -- way back in secondary school :S
6km -- I did more than 45 mins. I said to myself "What a shame" :( Aiyoyo...
Remember the time when I was in secondary with Yuan Xin, Mei San and the others.. we were like the queens on the field. Whenever we run, we are running for the district or state. Yuan Xin was the sprinter --> ran for 100m and 200m, Mei San was the long distance runner --> 800m and 1500m. And as for me, Shin Khai --> 200m and 400m and sometimes 800m when I was forced by Mr.Gurdeev :P
The fact is that, it's never easy to get into the team every term to represent your district or state as Pahang is way too big compare to other states.. It's like every single competition on track and fields, there are around 20 to 30 contestant per event -- and almost all of them are very good.. especially the indians in running events.. :S
I only manage to get into the district team for 4 years and the state team only once -- never easy but I had so much fun! Remember my personal best record for 400m was 58 seconds... about 15 seconds per 100m = > 2.5 mins per 1km... aiyoyo... if only I can ran that good nowadays :P
I remembered the time after my motorbike accident --> thanks to the 2 stupid cats (were dating and main kejar kejar across the road :S)... my right knee was cracked a bit and until now, I cant kneel down for more than a minutes -- when i stand up after that, I cant stand properly and it hurts.. since then I seldom jog or run anymore... more to brisk walk... as everytime I ran it hurts.. even now, marathon (huiyoh!)... training for it was never easy as it still aches everytime after my jog... just bear with it... :)
The past is the past and guess what, I am enjoying every single thing I am doing now -- jogging, sleeping, laughing and being quiet (in deep thought la) :P Today someone asked me about what sports I love the most -- without a single delay the images of this sports appeared in my head --> Kayaking! :P I never had a good opportunity to learn kayak when I was back in Uni ... what I could do was just to watch from a far the students learning by the seaside and enjoying themselves while I was filled with envy and sadness... haih... wish I could turn back time... :S Felt excited that Kenneth will bring me to Broga Hill this Saturday for a hike. It's been a long time since our last hike together at Gunung Angsi. I hope this one will be another fruitful hike together (and hope I dont slow him down) :P Cant wait to go! Yay! :)
Below is a pic we had during the Angsi hike... all are FaceBook gang :P
Whole body aching d... macam orang tua pulak... memalukan... haih... Ok folks... gonna go to bed soon... nite nite
Woke up this morning with a smile on my face.. was thinking "Was there any sweet dreams I had?" or "Was there something made me happy that I didnt notice?" Then as I view the text messages in my phone, I found the reason why I was smiling and being happy :) It was a text message I received from Kenneth, he texted me before he went to bed, everynight.. There's something in those messages that made you feel warm and blessed but as always, it's hard to explain...
Khoo emailed me the other day, asking "I heard that you are leaving the company, is it true?" Suddenly this question of his strikes me... I had nearly unaware that I only left 2 months working and having fun with this company, especially my colleagues :S Been searching high and low for jobs that I am interested and confident in lately, but it was hard. Guess this is another challenge and things for me to learn n life -- it's not always sweet and smooth, we need some challenge in our life (as such) to push ourselves further ahead and to appreciate life more.. So, no worries.. keep looking and may God will always be there to look out new job for me :P Hehehehehe...
I have a new family member, his name is Billie the Big Head Devil :P It's a toy from Kenneth -- damn cute with his big head and the 2 little red horns (devil's horns la) and a very tiny body... :P I hope I can hug him to sleep at nite but to bad, I'm worried that I will tear off his head :P So, I just place the fellar next to my pillow :)
Went for marathon last weekend and it was fun! Had some volunteering work on Saturday and running for 5km on Sunday morning 7am... exhausted of course but I guess I enjoyed the most of it... Oh anyway, the marathon was called "Standard Chartered KL Marathon 2009" :P
We are preparing for the next "Shape Putrajaya Nite Run" on 25th July 2009. It's going to be a night marathon and am expecting another round of crazy and fun photo session with the gang :) I will only be running for 5km as I wasnt trained for 10km yet... Furthermore, my legs ache everytime I jogged.. but the pain just goes away when you just be posotive and happy with what you are doing... a smile from him also will be sufficient :P
Evon's getting married next month -- going to register at the ROM. Was feeling excited about it. She invited me to join them at the ROM and I said "sure!" with a big smile :) We do felt happy for her to be able to find the happiness that one always wanted for... Hope that is the right guy for her to go through the journey of life together.. I told this to Salina yesterday and surprisingly she asked me when is my turn? I turned to her (while she was driving) and laughed "Lama lagi la Salina, I baru je umur 24... at least 30 la"... Then she looked at me and asked me am I sure ar with 30... I just answered her "gurau jer"... The moment will come without you knowing, there's no need to crack your head over it and there is also no harm with the fact that you might be alone till the old days, without marrying anyone. There are tons of possibilities -- just smile and be happy with who you are, this is more important in life :)
There were some other things we discussed yesterday... Accepting a person of who he or she is, will never be easy... It's all about give and take or compromising. There will always be something that we overlook in a relationship as time pass by, we got comfortable on the way we are living with it already -- forgetting the first thing that actually attracted that 2 person together. Salina told me about her story with Yoep, how they met each other and how hard it was when they are together till they got married and have kids.. It's a very valuable journey which taught me that:
Effective / proper communication method is vital between 2 person -- it will never works out with 2 hard headed people trying to fight who is right or wrong or 2 very soft headed person who just keep quiet and shy away when problem occurs. When one is being emotional, the other must be calm and focus on what's going wrong. It's always easy said than to be done... but at least I am trying :)
Whenever there's anything bothering you in a relationship, always take a deep breath and change your thinking cap from using the heart (emotion) to using your head (logic). I always did this but too bad, I was always the losing one as my head just can fight against the troubled heart of the other :P
Dont raise your voice whenever you talk to your partner -- it's all about respect. Dont shout, scream or whatever as this really hurts the other person alot.
Always be happy and smile :)
And many more............ cant continue.. something is troubling my mind now
Weird enough, as I was writing as these, I felt like crying already... dont know why... i just dont know why... Just felt that it's tough and it's not easy.. I am trying my best, my very best of not giving up... I told Dilla the other day, I nearly give up when things went wrong that day. I was so scared -- not because of hate or anger, but I was scared when that happened.. It reminds me of my dad.. it reminds me of my dad freaking the whole family out with his anger and abusive attitudes.. I was really scared till I cried.. even till today.. I do not want to go through those anymore..
Sometimes, crying is the best method to soothe the heart... I hope it does, for me now :)
Going back to Raub tonight, driving back alone.. Lonely pulak terasa.. :P
Love ya all... Kwan! Please call me la... you still alive or not?
