Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Gruuuuu..... Grruuuu....

Was a bit lazy when I started to think about going down to the gym -- boring place with 4 glass walls surrounding you... sometimes I felt suffocating inside :P
But no use la... Since Kenneth showed me the big loop in Taman Paramount, I ran for 2 rounds and guess what... I'm addicted to running d.. I would say that running at the park is indeed more challenging than running on the treadmill :P

Tried my best to complete the 5km run on the treadmill -- it took me 39.28 minutes... the timing was so bad (memalukan also) as I used to did around 20 to 25 mins back in school... maybe sudah tua d :P

My stomach is growling now making sounds like "Food! Food! KFC! KFC! McD! Hokkien Mee! Lobak! Rojak!" hahahaha... Think I'll go cook a mee now to feed my stomach :P

Nite everyone.. :)
May tomorrow be another happy hungry day! :P

Love,
Shin :)

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

A day I Love :)

Never thought I'll get a flower from Kent today, we'll sometimes surprises did happened and you felt it with your heart and not brain :)

Been for courier ride for the past 2 days -- tiring -- but somehow it was fruitful as I learned a lot about their busy routes and it sort of spark up my mind to think of ways to improve their PUD (Pickup & Delivery) Performance as well as the route management... I have to learn more on this...
erm..... if only I knew I would be staying longer with this company then it might motivates me more to get myself busy with all these information :)

Feedback feedback -- overall when the couriers found out that I will be leaving (contract ends) in 3 more months -- not knowing whether they will rener it or not, they wasnt very happy with it.. Questions asked would be "Who am I going to deal with about that stupid reweigh machine?", "Who's gonna help me with the system problem?" and etc... Overall, none of these questions were valid enough to keep my contract alive. Just smile :)

Saranjit from HR was asking for my resume the other day -- Am Investment Bank is hiring -- she said that if i wanted the job (I dont even know what's the portfolio of the job), just send her the resume and the job is mine! Wow! Not bad... but the location is at Jln Raja Chulan -- a very hectis and traffic jam location. You can drive there -- you have to leave very early and get home very late to not stuck in the jam... You can take the public transport -- LRT PUTRA from Taman Bahagia / Kelana Jaya --> KL Sentral --> swith to KL Monorail --> Bukit Nanas ... not easy... but no choice if DHL not going to retain me :S

The week before, Sir Yuz dropped by in KL with Mr.Lobo (hahahah) and we had dinner together -- Dilla and Hasrul were in the group too! :)
It was a very entertaining, memorable and informative evening we had. News about our campus, lecturers, courses, the new students, some gossip and etc etc were the topic of the evening and we all were laughing throughout the dinner... Good to see that Sir Yuz has been promoted ( as what we had always waited for) and other lecturers were doing fine too.... the only one I miss now is Mr.Zul -- manalah manusia ni..?? :S
I hardly forget what Sir Yuz, Sir Tam and Mr.Zul thought me in their classes.. all were my fav subjects.. And I would really love to continue my master in any of those someday :) If only God bless me with that opportunity :)

Thursday -- I'll be meeting Uncle Stephen. Really do miss him a lot since I last met him back in Labuan somewhere in March 2009. He has been a very good listener and mentor to me since the day I knew him and Auntie Siew Kim has been a very caring god-mum :)
Too bad that I dont even have the chance to meet up with Auntie (as it always happens) when she was here last week... maybe she was busy.. :(
I was very excited when Uncle told me that he's dropping by and we'll have dinner with him on Thursday then :P Told Elbert that I'll be bringing someone over.. hehe :P

Had a jog at the Paramount Park yesterday evening -- the big loop, not the regular loop -- and guess what, I was kinda addicted to it already :P
Going to get my new pair of running shoe soon... $300 flying away... :S If only my birthday is next week and I can get it as a present :P hehehhe... dreaming again :P

12.15AM -- time to go under the blankie :)
Guess Ken is still doing his laundry :P

Nite everyone and God bless us all :)

Love,
Shin :)

Sunday, May 10, 2009

A Brief One...

Have you ever come to the point where you will cry thinking about your future?
Perhaps no... but today, I did...

Tears just came down and I just cant hold it back when I start to think about my future. My dreams and plans suddenly all seem to be so vague... it cant even be reached for the near 3 years.. not even the simplest one -- my master degree...

Study loan need to be paid... bills need to be paid... car need to be taking care of... mum need to be made happy.. and etc...

Sometimes, things just fell apart without you knowing..
God bless..

Monday, May 4, 2009

Contract = Confusion = Sleepless nights...

"Shin, you free now? Can I have a word with you?"

There goes me and Surin walking over to the HR interview room for a one-to-one private talk...
I always felt glad whenever Surin take the effort to talk to me this way, however today guilt filled my heart more than gladness..

First topic on the plate -- my employment contract -- he said that he had promised me earlier that he would update me on my contract status anytime end of April or early of May so that if there's anything happens, I would have sufficient time to lurk around for a job. However, today he couldnt offer me what I had always wanted or wish to hear from them (the management) -- my contract status still unknown.. meaning that, all of them are not sure yet, the decision is in Yasmin (DHL Express Asia Pacific big boss) hand...

The fact that made me having my confidence built back up a lil by lil was when Surin told me that, indeed there were a number of person a.k.a managers who supported my employment here -- meaning would want me to stay...

Then the second topic on the plate -- "was there anything bothering you for the past month?" -- this was the question asked by Surin which hit me.. perhaps I myself did not really realize the changes in me that he and Salina noticed.. "Your energy level seems to have dropped... as if like you were starting well at 5th gear but for the past month, I noticed that you had swithed to 3rd gear instead..."

Surin's example with the gear thingy was good enough... then he added, not that I did anything wrong or my job is not good.. it's just that it bothers him much when he dont feel that I am happy or as enthusiatic working as when I was nearly joined.. He was worried if I am already bored with the job or if there's some work related stuffs that are bothering me..

It was spontaneous of me to assure my boss that I am doing fine -- nothing related to work that is bothering me -- prehaps more on my personal stuffs..

The fact that my contract is going to end in just another 4 months time really does affecting myself -- day by day without myself realizing the harm it does to my mind -- my mind just cant stop thinking where should I head to after this? What kind of job or company would I be interested? How would all this affected my own plans for the years to come? Will I be able to continue my master with all these shits happening? What about having my own house? What about climbing up the ladder -- when can I manage to achieve this?

All these were wondering in my head as Surin was trying to make me feel comfortable again into my working envronment...

"You know when did I decided to hire you?" -- this was the 3rd unexpected question asked by Surin... "Try to guess"

Then I answered "Right after my interview with you?"
He just shake his head and I remembered every word he told me which made me realized that I had forgotten to be myself -- my very ownself...

Surin told me the fact that he had spotted and wanted to hire me was when I was still an Intern in HR. I first work closely with him was during the Kids Camp and during that time he said he has spotted the staff he wanted to hire into his team.. He said that the way and attitude I showed during the Kids Camp was positive -- for a person / girl to sit under the hot sun doing registration without complaining and keep smiling was what attracted his interest in hiring. "I believe other bosses out there would be glad to have hire you as mch as I do"
Surin did said that he hopes by telling me this it would actually be able to convince me on how glad they are of having me here to work with them and wanting me to stay... I was almost at the point of teary eyes when he said all these but I managed to still hold them back..

Honestly, I wasn't ready to leave yet -- I saw there are tons of opportunities for me to soar if I am able to stay. I know where I want to head to if I am still there... but all these uncertainties really are making me confused and worried all the time.. Without a permanent position, it is hard for me to plan my path... I need a solid ground to step on, being comfortable with it before I start walking on it then start sprinting along the path...

There was a vacancy in DGF (DHL Global Forwarding) which looks interesting -- however it was based in Labuan. Not that I am not willing to travel and work there... with Uncle Stephen and Auntie Siew Kim there, I have nothing to worry... but my heart was reluctant to leave.. I'm gonna miss my mom (and she gonna miss me so much), I'm gonna miss my cat, and of course Kenneth too... who's going to take care of my car? my mum? aiseh... too many things already...

I have my own goals and dreams to reach.. I really do hope I can reach them on time..

Just pray hard everything will be fine...

Love,
Shin :)