Bye Bye Tabbee... :(

I cant stop myself from crying once I got the news from Andy..
"Halo, Andy? So did you manage to find Tabbee??"

There's a pause in my heart when I was asking this to Andy as I am really afraid of what I will hear from Andy soon....
"Tabbee fell down. Dead d....."
My heart stop for a moment -- I couldn't accept what I heard... He's only 2 months old...

I was looking forward to come home after work to play with this little fella.. Part of me were saying that, if I could come home earlier, he might not have fell... Suddenly, I have lost a little buddy to play with, a friend who would cheer me up after a tired day at work..

I started crying in the car... when I reached the car park, I couldn't stop myself from thinking of him, his little cute and adorable face... I couldn't stop myself from imagining how he had fall from the balcony.. oh my god...

Get into the house, I cant forget his little cute paws stepping out from the corner of the hall and ran towards me as if he's been waiting for me to get home and play with him. I still remembered the time I was playing hide and seek with him around the sofa... It was still fresh in my mind of the way he looked at me this morning when I was drying my clothes... His eyes just sparkles and a cute smile.. And now he's gone already...

I miss him so much... :'(
Tabbee....

In grieve..
Shin :'(

Tabbee -- The new member in the house :)

Went for rock climb at Damai today around 8.30am and I only managed to climb for 2 routes. I had never been there since my last trip 6 months ++ ago and it sort of thrilled me today to be there again. Unfortunately, bad enough, I didn't manage to finish any of the routes as my arms tires easily... shall try again next round :)

It's good to have a cat at home now -- Tabbee -- my bro in law bought him for MYR700 and he's only 2 months old.. :)


It feels great to play with him because no matter how bad the day you had outside with people around you, you come back home and see him sitting here looking at you innocently -- ready to have some fun with you -- all my worries and unhappiness gone away. Its true, I really do love animals especially cats and dogs as they will never abandon me no matter what and I will never feel lonely with them around -- not as complicated and troublesome as human being... :)

Love,
Shin :)

Reflecting on Life

Since a couple of weeks before, I checked my mailbox almost everyday... the result = no news from any company yet! Erm... this really torn down my faith and motivation to work -- I know I know... I have to be patience and keep my eyes open, but sometimes, I get tired too being in this situation. I have no doubt that I am performing in my work now but I just dont understand why they prefer to retain people who generates such negative energy to the working environment and team rather than keeping me in the circle? I am definately have no doubt on my working performance or attitude towards colleagues.. but it just amazed me sometimes...

Surin texted me last Friday night saying that although Yasmin has rejected my contract renewal but they (Surin and the other managers) are still trying to keep me. To be honest that night I could harldy sleep though I told everyone that I just read his message around 2am.. I lied somehow.. after reading his text, his short text message which should made me feel relieve or convince that they still havent give up on me.. instead, it caused me to have so much bad dreams that night..
I wasnt as peaceful anymore as I think I am...

Inside of me, I am crying already -- thinking why life must be so harsh on me in everything I do. But my head is telling me I have to stay positive and be strong -- not to let anyone under estimate myself as they have yet to know who I am. I have to have faith in what I am going through now and I have to remind myself that I am blessed to have such wonderful people around me that had helped me so much through this hard time...

Kenneth, Mr.Zul, Surin, Nanta, Kwan, Beckz -- Thanks a lot guys! I really appreciate the help in looking out jobs for me.. I owe u guys a big one! :)

So much happened lately in the office -- all about human relationship management :P
What clever moves is it to keep yourself comfortable around people you are working with and as well as what is the strategy to keep people around you comforatble working with you without causing you trouble and hassle and in the same time enable you to perform.. these are really interesting things to discuss about as I believe everyone has their own thoughts on this :)

Yesterday was Uncle Stephen and Bro Jea Farn's Birthday! Happy Birthday!
The day before yesterday was Kenneth's dad's Birthday! Happy Birthday Uncle Chan! :P
The day before again was Evon's ROM (Marriage Registration) -- Congrats sis!


So much happened around me... and it's interesting...
Let me post up some of my happy memories in DHL soon in my future blogs to let you know why it's sad for me to leave... :(

Love ya all so much! God bless!

Love,
Shin :)

Swimming? Erm....

"Should I go down or shouldn't I?" -- This was the only question bothering me at the moment... Okay okay, you must be thinking going down to where (I'm sure if Arujun heard this, his mind would be fantasizing something else :P)... I was thinking whether to go down to the swimming pool or not..

The fact is that "I do not know how to swim" and this fact has been killing me for years :S Self confidence I guess what the reason that till now I am still lost with this sport :P
No no, not because of the swimwear -- I don't bother how people will look at me also as I dont look that bad what :P... Self confidence here would refer to the lack of confidence on myself in taking up and learning it -- then on how people look and think when they see you holding that swimming board at this age :P

I know I know, learning of course I cant be shy with all these but just cant help it :)
I will go down later and I hope I wont get myself drown ... :S

Love,
Shin (scared of water... joking! :P)