I wanna be happy :)

Everyday you wake up and wondering what's ahead that you'll be facing. You blink your eyes for a few times not knowing that you have wasted a few seconds of your life sitting there being confused and grumpy.

Get up and touch the sky with your hand... even you cant reach that high yet, keep trying and you'll reach it sooner or later.. I wanna smile my way through it.. :) God bless..

Love,

Shin :)

A Tribute -- Yasmin Ahmad

As you sit down and recall back those special ads you watch over the years during festive seasons, you hardly notice who was the creative mind behind all those stories -- the stories that touches each and every of our heart. This time around, we have lost another great life story teller, Yasmin Ahmad..


Tributes were everywhere -- over the radio, television, blogs and social networking sites.. As the DJ were reading out tributes from the public, I cant stop my tears from flowing when each and every of those words bring back such a great amount of memories that I once had and the feeling that I used to and still having whenever I watch all her movies and ads.. She's one of a kind..

Colors of skin and culture should never be the boundaries for us to live together, t share life together, to cry together and yet to grow old together... What if you are a Chinese, Malay or Indian -- does the difference in the races and skin colors make you any lesser than a normal human being?

I am blessed to have wonderful friends around me and guess what, all of them are from different races... I have Dilla -- my close friend who I can share my feelings and thoughts with. I have Ramesh, Ken Mee and Lee Ming -- who we grew up together with. I have Mr.Zul -- who has never give up on me and giving me all the support he could all the time. I have Surin -- my boss who will never forget to appreciate each and everything you do. I have Yen -- who has been there for me for the past years where I had a unsupportive relationship. I have Lydia -- who was there whenever I needed a company. I have Kwan -- who I can bully all the time and at the same time being bullied by him too :) I have Ricardo -- who always believe in me and have me in his memory.. and now I have Ken -- who always accept the way I am and love me for who I am...

I have a lot to write today but the smell of my Aunt's cooking just made me lost in my own 'food' fantasy world... stomach is growling...

Lirik Pergi - Aizat (OST Talentime)

Sayu terpisah
hikayat indah kini hanya tinggal sejarah
berhembus angin rindu
begitu nyamannya terhidu wangian kasihmu
hujan lebat mencurah kini
bagaikan tiada henti
kaulah laguku kau irama terindah
tak lagi kudengari
kau pergi.. pergi..
sepi tanpa kata
terdiam dan kaku tak daya kau kulupa
apa pun kata mereka
biarkan kenangan berbunga di ranting usia

Love all of you so much...
Shin :)

Shape Putrajaya Run :)

Oh... Just woke up after almost 9 hours of sleep -- recovery from the exhaustion I had from yesterday run :P
I was participating in the Fun Run (non-competitive) which is 5km and I manage to complete it in 32 mins -- erm.. 5 minutes of improvement from my gym record :) Was thinking should I train more to improve my endurance and stamina or should I upgrade to 10km? One thing for sure, my mind wasn't strong enough yet and this is the part I have to take care of first :P

Kenneth and the others were running in the 11.5km and Kenneth manage to complete it under 1 hour and 10 mins (a timing for a sick person - fever - not bad not bad) and I'm proud of him.. Faeez and the others did more than 1 hour and 20 mins :)

Ok ok... I need to brush my teeth and bath then... maybe continue to sleep again? wahahahaha :P

Love ya all... :)

Love,
Shin :)

Just Plain Lousy... :(

I miss my hometown buddies but none willing to make some free time for me..
When I said that I am upset -- I was again put to blame..
I blame myself for caring so much for them -- be there for them when they need someone to talk to..
But when it's my time -- who do I turn to?

Lousy,
Shin :(

Had fun --> Ouch!

Another though week searching for job... My Maxis application has once again (the first time was during my internship) being rejected -- damn! :S

Am now awaiting the others to respond while browsing through more... life is so difficult sometimes.. guess this is the challenge that I need to go through before anything that will come waving at me with a smile :)

Went to FRIM on Saturday and it was indeed a great outdoor day I had for quite a long time. Reason why I enjoyed it so much was because the fact that we (me and the gang) managed to snap a lot of photos -- crazy and sweet photos that is :)

These are things that will remind all of us of the fun of exploring a whole new world with friends and also new friends that you got to know while exploring :) Ken Mee followed us to FRIM last saturday too and I was glad he did. There was a bit of complains about others delaying the trekking up to the canopy walk and what I would say to him was -- "Bro, chill and relax. Have fun. This is not a competition." -- Whenever I am travelling in a group, I tends to make sure everything is happy and OK. Guess those who always thinking of reaching as the first or leaving the others behind would reflect something in their life -- how they are going to deal and take care of their love ones around them.. Key word for the day -- be patience :P

Then on Sunday, Kenneth and I joined Siew's team at the Skytrex, Bukit Cahaya -- It's something like flying fox and obstacles way up high (around 15 to 20 meters from the ground) :) Of course, we had fun there but the excitement and fun I had there was not as good as the FRIM -- I get to know new friends but the Skytrex I wasnt introduce to much people :) Oh, nvm...

Another boring morning... My tentative for today would be:

1. Skype and disturb Dilla


2. Skype and disturb Anum


3. Skype and disturb Susan


4. Waiting for Kenneth to Skype :P


5. Finishing up my to-do-list for the day


6. Copy the applications discussion outcome from the white board -- must do today!


7. Thinking and strategize for Restaurant City :P


8. Eating eating and eating (miss Ramlee burger d :(... )


9. Think of what else to do...
   
   

Till then all.. Shall post more photos in here over the weekend as the connection was way lousy in the evening till midnight time :S

Wish me all the best of getting a job ya. Pray pray pray....

Love,

Shin :)

Sleepy -- a quick one :P

Lately been having a very weird feeling -- I kept thinking of giving up on things that I am having or doing now -- no matter it's work, relationship, interest, family or anything...
Dont know what caused me to felt this way but I really do hope it goes away soon enough... :S

At last! Manage to get Mr.Zul online... haih, it's never easy to get the opportunity to chat with him -- at times I thought he had forgotten me and had become best buddies with my ex :S Hehehehe... sorry ler I pikir camni.. cant help it la bro :P

Going for jungle trekking tomorrow at FRIM. Who's joining? Let me see -- Zul and his 5 other friends, Shin Khai, Kenneth, Ker Soon and Ken Mee :)
So, today's entry would just be a short one as I am heading to bed already... nite nite guys!

KD -- rindu akak la... meh la keluar sama sama next time... jgn pergi dah kenduri... penat jer :P wakakaka

Kwan -- you book ticket d or not???!!!!

Love & sleepy,
Shin :P

Moody moody...

Waking up in the morning with a cloudy mood in my head -- Keep asking myself why is it so hard to get over what people said or commented about you. Sometimes, when people said something to you and it's funny and make others luagh -- I would consider it as a joke! But when you said something to a person and the others not even dare to say a word or they just laugh within themselves -- Shouldnt that sounds more like an insult or what I say "stupid" f***ing joke?

Okay --- actually I woke up around 4am... Dont know what to do, so I went online, the connection was slow so I decided to do my laundry. It took me around 15 minutes with it then I though I can get back to sleep -- I CANT FALL ASLEEP! Tossing around from left to right and to left again, but my mind just seemed so blur and I just couldnt sleep till 6.15am when I started to feel sleepy again :S
Try texting but guess the person was sleeping soundly too as there's no reply -- or maybe my text message no longer wake that person up anymore..
What a miserable morning I had -- but it shouldnt stop me from having a great day ahead :)

Lately I had been thinking about getting a job as soon as possible that it made me stress up again :S It's just so hard to get a single reply from those vacancies that you are interested in... God bless me and I really do need a lot of moral support and motivation from people and things around me... gotten kinda sensitive lately due to this -- trying to get my mind free every weekend. Hope no one will piss me off during this difficult time around -- if I could put on a smiley face and you still piss me off -- OMG, I couldnt imagine what will come out from my mouth or I wont even talk to that person already...

Arrggghhhhh!!!!!
K.D, I tengah bengang nie!!! Camne nie...?? Bila nak gi gila gila ngan Shin nie? I nak ambik gambar banyak banyak la.. :S

Kwan Wai Pang -- I tell you ar, you better book your ticket next week to come over KL, or else ... hehehehe...

Need to start work d... gambate to myself and hope the day ahead is promising enough and brings happiness.. :)

Love,
Shin :)

What does a woman lies a lot about?

Just got home from a jog at Taman Aman -- today the 5 rounds were so easy, no difficulty at all, was thinking is it because of the iPod that helped? Maybe :) Good thing though so next time I shall put my iPod on and RUN! :P

Was listening to the Fly.FM Rush Hour this evening and the topic that Jules and Prem brought up was "What do women lie most about?" -- Some callers called in and said things which were quite expected such as -- age, weight, relationship status and blah blah blah...
For me, there is one thing that women lie most about -- our feelings. We often cared so much about the things around us, especially how people look and judge us that we tend to say things to please people around at times which we dont really feel that way. Maybe some of you can say that this sounds hiprokrit but it's true. Men do the same too but perhaps no as critical as ladies do. :)

So, I asked myself -- "What did I lied about recently?"... Most of it was a sin that I lied to my mom when she asked me where was I over the weekend.. I was -- the truth = went hiking with Kenneth -- the lie = I was out watching movie :S
The reason behind this was when everytime I share with her what I was doing over the weekend, she was not being supportive and happy for the things I do. I dont find hiking or climbing wrong for any reasons as long as I take good care of my safety and I go with someone I can count on. It wasnt a bad thing nor a crime but.. she just worried without reasons and start accusing me for something that I did not do -- which sometimes, it made me reluctant to share with her what I gone through with work and friends anymore... Sometimes you just hope a person would just listen and be supportive and trust you.. This was something that which I said that we, overall no matter what gender, would lead us to lie...

I used to share these experiences of where I went and who I met or what I do with Uncle Stephen and Auntie Yong or maybe sometimes friends like Kwan or Lydia or Dilla... but lately everyone just seems so quiet... I miss uncle and auntie already.. Lydia also... it's been almost a few months we never see each other... haih :S

Sometimes, women tend to lie how they feel when people ask them "Are you feeling ok?" -- reason being was we tend to prove that we are strong and tough, very often forgetting that we are not as strong and tough as men --> which is the fact! We do not wanted to be look down in any way by the other sex as we had been said to be the 'fragile' one and been judge as the least important.. That's another reason why women lie about their feelings :)

When being asked "Are you ok, or is there something wrong?" -- I tend to answer that everything is fine, although sometimes it was hurting inside or was feeling confused. The reason from me would be -- the less word being spoken, the less harm done. Sometimes, you just never know how that person would react to your answer for that "Are you ok, or is there something wrong?" type of question... Sometimes, I keep silent and try to imagine or think how that person would react to each and every words I would say later on (managing the expectation) -- will that person be calm enough to listen to the problems I am having? Will that person be supportive enough to give good advise / solutions with a logical and positive attitude? Will that person be caring enough to just listen and give me a pat on my back (or a hug from someone that I love) without uttering a word and just figure out the solutions he / she can think of later? Will that person just be darn emotional and start stumping his / her feet in front of me or start screaming her lungs out at me when I said how I feel? Will each of my words that truly came from the heart breaks the friendship or relationship? -- these are all the concerns...

That's why I can truly tell everyone here that I am a person who is very careful with my words -- the politness and proper words to be used with different people.. I do not like rudeness, every words used against me is something that I used to judge a person -- whether he or she is mature enough, still childish, emotional, kepohchi or etc...

That's why some friends always said that I might look talkative or quiet at times, but beware as I am observing... hahaha... this was said by my close friends back in hometown... maybe or maybe not... They said that I am a dangerous creature... Dangerous creature but still want to hangout with me... Who is crazier and dangerous then? :P Hahahaha

My hair at last -- SHORT! It reminds me f my Form 2 photo... I look exactly like that age.. OMG! Surprisingly, Kenneth said that I look cute (blushing) and mom said I look better with this haircut :P
Thank u thank u !

Nite everyone... I planned to go in to office very early tomorrow, maybe around 6.30am.. so I need to have my beauty sleep now :P

Aih... miss my dear d.... :P

Love,
Shin :P

Broga Hill Hike (Saturday) -- Cancelled! :P

Yesterday morning supposed to be the day for our Broga Hill hike -- me and Kenneth of course.. Too bad that suddenly it rained in the morning and when we reached there (after we got lost in the Semenyih town for a while), OMG there were so many cars around -- a lot of people were hiking on that day. Furthermore the sky was getting darker and darker... We decided to camcelled the hiking plan for the day and go for a Morib excursion trip! :P

Before we go to Morib, we dropped by at the Putrajaya new sports centre -- I was feeling a bit 'itchiness' with my legs and hands d since the hiking was cancelled in the morning so I was joking to hike up those little man-made hills in Putrajaya... We were laughing about that silly idea till we came to the sports centre look-out point!
We stopped the car by the road side and guess what! We climb up the hill using the drainage and the slopes with slippers! I was thinking -- people sure say this people went nuts and got nothing else better to do -- but I can tell you that, I enjoyed it a lot. Though it's something simple but the fun of doing it (of course it's not against the law) and sharing that fun with someone you love is great! Hope Kenneth enjoyed it too :P

The we head to Morib -- on the way, Kenneth said he wish to have banana for snacks while on our way driving to Morib. We passed a makcik stall selling bananas and I was confidently telling him that there will be another (maybe a lot more) such stalls in front -- he were doubting so we have a bet :P
After some few kilometres, at last, there's a run down stall selling bananas... RM 1 for 1kg = CHEAP! I do not know what this type of banana called but it was nice and sweet. We finished the whole bunch by the time we reached Morib :P


Overall our journey yesterday was like this:

My house --> 7 Eleven for 100 Plus and mineral water --> Char Siu Pau Shop, nyum nyum :P --> Semenyih (got lost :P) --> Broga Hill (cancelled coz raining) --> Petronas Toilet :P --> Putrajaya Sports Centre --> Putrajaya Sports Center Look Out Point (which we were planning to fake it as the Broga Hill peak :P heheheh) --> Morib beach --> Tanjung Sepat bridge --> Bagan Lalang beach --> Tanjung Sepat SeaFood Restaurant for lunch --> Tanjung Sepat Pau Shop, nyum nyum --> Dong Zen Temple (superb beautiful) --> Sunway (bath) --> The Curve, Home Deco fair :) --> Back to home! --> Room's door was lock from within --> no key can open it --> BREAK the door knob --> a night rest without a door knob :S

Energy level -- Start journey 7am =98%
Energy level -- End of journey 10.30pm = 5%
Hahahahaha

I shall post our journey yesterday with more interesting storylines soon... now I need to bath and head back to Raub :P

Love,
Shin :P

Chic Peas :P

Woke up in the morning -- first thing that came to my mind is to cook the chic peas! :P
I wanted to bring it over as a gift when I had lunch later with Ken.. :)

On leave today -- at least another rest day for me. Had a great rest -- I doozed off around 10.10pm and woke up at 6.30am (realized that I do not need to work today :P) and then went back to sleep till 8.35pm and I said to myself "Aiyoyo, lupa wake him up at 8am!"... But no worries, he will always get up at the time he wants -- not like us, sleep is the best hobby in the world! Hahaha... :P

Something interesting happened yesterday -- a simple survey done by Siva and Melinda during our lunch session: "What you think that makes a man having affair with another woman when he's already in a relationship (married or dating la)?"
Siva was actually targetted me and Salina for that question when suddenly Salina said Siva shouldnt be asking me coz I am not married yet -- Siva said "No no, dont said like that. This girl can answer, you will never know!" --> true enough Siva, I might not be married or have a lot of relationships before, but I believe there are certain things that I understand and went through that no one been there before -- same goes to each and everyone of you who are reading this..

Some of us might have been betrayed in a relationship before -- Some of us might have a miscommunication in a relationship before -- Some of us might not know that our anger problem is not working out for a relationship -- Some of us might have been abused mentally or physically before -- And so much more... I believe our journeys are definately differently from each other, either they help you to grow emotionally or they breaks you just like that -- and thank God that my past taught me and made me realized that I have a better future ahead.

Ok, back to Siva's survey...
Salina answers:

1. Sex could be the reason -- a man feeling dissatisfied in sex with his partner and found someone who could satisfied him out there
2. Partner should always spice things up in the relationship especially when the door is closed and the lights is off
   
3. Give and take or compromising is the key in a successful relationship
   

True enough what Salina said and I agreed, but below are my justification:

1. Feeling dissatisfied can never be and excuse for all the betrayal. If a man feeling dissatisfied with the partner sexually and he opt to go out and get another woman to satisfied him -- does he ever know / asked if the wife is satisfied with his performance on the bed too? This can never be a valid excuse of betraying and breaking up your partner's heart.
2. Values -- it's a bout values one hold in his or her life. There is no right or wrong sometimes in a relationship but it really about one's values on how he or she looks at things. The man may say it's for his own good (self-satisfaction) but have he ever sit down and think deeply on what impact it will cause to the partner? It's not all about yourself when you are in a relationship (and if you are thinking of a journey together with this person in your life) -- it involves other souls too.
3. Always remember to think -- before you do something / take a risk, always try to be in one's shoes and think about how would they feel or think if you did this to them and how would you feel if thy did the same to you? I'd been through one who never consider how hurtful the things he does to me and I can tell you here now that, sometimes, always use your brain and not your heart to make a decision. Think before you act..
   
4. At the end of the day, it's all about communication. If 2 person are smart enough they will know how to work out that relationship -- the vital ingredients for every relationship are different. Some need to do a lot of talking, some just need to get physical and some might just need some emotional maturity to deal with it. Some couples like to hug each other when things goes wrong. Some just need to be silent and think through it and get peace from it. Some just like to fight over it. Some just prefer to stay away from each other.
5. I have more to say but I am just plain lazy to type today :P

A friend asked me yesterday through skype "What kind of people that you are scared of or dislike?"... I answer her with a laugh:

1. I dont like someone like my dad -- always angry all the time, it's like a mental torture staying with him
2. I dont like people who cheat on me -- they will get their karma soon
3. I am scared of people scolding me or raise their voice (with anger) to me -- I dislike it a lot as I think it's very immature and sometimes I am afraid that I cant hold myself and I slap that person --> things might got worse from there :P Wahahaha
4. I am scared of my mom -- I'm scared that she will leave me someday and I have no one to turn to for a mother daughter joke or gossip :S
5. I dislike people who think himself / herself is so great -- no need to tell who la
6. I am scared of people who are abusive like my dad -- mental and physical torture :S
7. I hate people who do not know how to deal with things in a mature way -- what they use is force, violence, anger and self torture!

Ok, my chic peas are almost ready... need to prepare it first :P
Love ya all...

Love,
Shin :P

10km --> completed!

Was feeling a bit reluctant to run earlier this evening but luckily I managed to drag myself down to the gym -- what made me more excited was the gym was vacant! No intruders! Hahaha :P

Started running, I set my mind to only run for 6km today by beating the earlier timing -- the something hits me and was telling me "Dont push yourself -- run the distance first, dont run the timing"... oh ok then :)
Started running with my iPod playing in my ears -- music really distract me from keep on looking at the monitor -- how far and how long have I run.. :)
Somewhere around 3km that I decided today I wanted to complete 10 km instead of 6km! I manage to finish 5km in 38 mins.. My legs was feeling heavy somewhere around my 7km and my mind weaken -- oh no!!!
However, I still manage to complete my 10km at 74mins and 38 seconds... hu... what a tiring session... :P
Was so satisfied with the run -- but there's one mistake I made, I was increasing the speed just to finish it faster -- no good no good... should be consistent, no wonder I felt my whole body aching now :S

Had a great time back in office today... Surprisingly, a lot of people were asking about my contract status today -- Siva asked, Khoo asked, Zul and Harliza asked, Anum asked, Madam V asked, Susan asked... aiyoyo... pening nak jawab :P
Surin just said dont hope too much but always strive for the best :)
I really like this boss..

Was planning to go to jog tomorrow in the park... but then I changed my mind -- was thinking about bowling :P Since my dear wont be able to accompany me for jog tomorrow as he's having dinner with friends then I was thinking maybe I can asked Sree and the others for a bowling session tomorrow :P
Harap harap jadi la... or else I'll come home and watch TVB series :P

Aiyo... body aching d... suddenly miss my dog Popeye so much and especially DoDo (my dog which has passed away 8 years ago..) miss DoDo... She's a labrarador Retriever which is very very beautiful... I have a lot of her photos.. I shall scanned and post it up soon :)

Tired d.. going to FB then I shall sleep... nite everyone :)

Love,
Shin :)

Raining.. I love it.. :)

People always say that "the rain will wash away memories.." but for me, the rains will always brings back memories... at least the good and memorable ones :)

It was raining in KL -- thank God for the rains as KL was extremely hot lately. At least it lower down the weather and we can all sleep soundly tonight under the blanket :)
I was in the car with Kenneth.. while he was driving, my attention was directed to those raindrops falling onto the car -- the motion of the raindrops and the beautiful sound it creates... I love raining (though it makes my car dirtier then usual :P)... Suddenly some memories came back to me which I was kinda surprised with them :)

I still remember the first time he brought me to this 'tong sui' stall in Seksyen 17 months ago... it was rainy season too that time but that particular day was a Wednesday and it didnt rain.. I remember that he was wearing a black shirt which he has folded the sleeves into half up to his elbow and a pair of jeans with his white Nike shoes.. hehe, of course that time his hair was not as short as the way it is now :) I couldnt reall what 'tong sui' he had that day -- either bubur chacha or red bean soup... I was having the 'mak chuk tong sui'... We had a quick but a nice little lite dinner together that day.. :)
I'm missing those moments... I felt blessed that we were having the same tonight -- the only difference between then and now would be the bond builded between us :)
I felt warm to be by his side today.. felt sweet and being appreciated..

I bought him some cakes today -- without any reason. I hope he likes it and yeap, he love them :)
The fact is that I love surprises -- giving and receiving of course :P And I believe that presents or whatever it is, should never comes only during any special occasion -- it should always comes with your heart desire.. That's me... :P

We went to visit some kittens at a pet store in DU... This is the 5th times we went to this shop and I hope the owner wont be mad at us playing their kittens and not buying anything :P
The kittens were so cute and I really really wish I can have my own very very soon... A short hair and cute playful one... grey color with blue eye maybe :P
Maybe one like the below... hehehhe


Browsed through some job posting today and had came across some interesting jobs -- will apply tomorrow hopefully, since Surin and Salina will not be in AM, I would have sufficient time to do my own 'personal' things ... hehehe...
Another 1.5 months to go and I really gonna miss Surin, Salina, Anum and the others... This I would say, is the best working environment for me... the energy, the fun, the crazyness and the openess of each other were the best qualities this team can offer...
A part of me wanting to stay (hoping for my contract renewal) and a part of me was telling me to move on and explore new opportunities ahead of me to grow :)
Some secret were shared between me and Surin yesterday, and I do really hope he meant what he said to me coz it really does motivate me a lot!

Time to continue disturbing Mr.Sree a.k.a brother Sree who is still working in office... pity pity...

Nite everyone... Have a wonderful sleep tonight with this noce weather...Love ya all..

Love,
Shin :)

Getting Older... huhuhu

Just got back from the gym and I pity myself so much... As if I had grew old so fast that I couldn't run as I did before -- way back in secondary school :S

6km -- I did more than 45 mins. I said to myself "What a shame" :(
Aiyoyo...

Remember the time when I was in secondary with Yuan Xin, Mei San and the others.. we were like the queens on the field. Whenever we run, we are running for the district or state. Yuan Xin was the sprinter --> ran for 100m and 200m, Mei San was the long distance runner --> 800m and 1500m. And as for me, Shin Khai --> 200m and 400m and sometimes 800m when I was forced by Mr.Gurdeev :P

The fact is that, it's never easy to get into the team every term to represent your district or state as Pahang is way too big compare to other states.. It's like every single competition on track and fields, there are around 20 to 30 contestant per event -- and almost all of them are very good.. especially the indians in running events.. :S

I only manage to get into the district team for 4 years and the state team only once -- never easy but I had so much fun! Remember my personal best record for 400m was 58 seconds... about 15 seconds per 100m = > 2.5 mins per 1km... aiyoyo... if only I can ran that good nowadays :P

I remembered the time after my motorbike accident --> thanks to the 2 stupid cats (were dating and main kejar kejar across the road :S)... my right knee was cracked a bit and until now, I cant kneel down for more than a minutes -- when i stand up after that, I cant stand properly and it hurts.. since then I seldom jog or run anymore... more to brisk walk... as everytime I ran it hurts.. even now, marathon (huiyoh!)... training for it was never easy as it still aches everytime after my jog... just bear with it... :)

The past is the past and guess what, I am enjoying every single thing I am doing now -- jogging, sleeping, laughing and being quiet (in deep thought la) :P
Today someone asked me about what sports I love the most -- without a single delay the images of this sports appeared in my head --> Kayaking! :P
I never had a good opportunity to learn kayak when I was back in Uni ... what I could do was just to watch from a far the students learning by the seaside and enjoying themselves while I was filled with envy and sadness... haih... wish I could turn back time... :S

Felt excited that Kenneth will bring me to Broga Hill this Saturday for a hike. It's been a long time since our last hike together at Gunung Angsi. I hope this one will be another fruitful hike together (and hope I dont slow him down) :P
Cant wait to go! Yay! :)

Below is a pic we had during the Angsi hike... all are FaceBook gang :P


Whole body aching d... macam orang tua pulak... memalukan... haih...
Ok folks... gonna go to bed soon... nite nite

Love,
Shin :)

Billie the Big Head Devil ...

Woke up this morning with a smile on my face.. was thinking "Was there any sweet dreams I had?" or "Was there something made me happy that I didnt notice?"
Then as I view the text messages in my phone, I found the reason why I was smiling and being happy :) It was a text message I received from Kenneth, he texted me before he went to bed, everynight.. There's something in those messages that made you feel warm and blessed but as always, it's hard to explain...

Khoo emailed me the other day, asking "I heard that you are leaving the company, is it true?" Suddenly this question of his strikes me... I had nearly unaware that I only left 2 months working and having fun with this company, especially my colleagues :S
Been searching high and low for jobs that I am interested and confident in lately, but it was hard. Guess this is another challenge and things for me to learn n life -- it's not always sweet and smooth, we need some challenge in our life (as such) to push ourselves further ahead and to appreciate life more.. So, no worries.. keep looking and may God will always be there to look out new job for me :P Hehehehehe...

I have a new family member, his name is Billie the Big Head Devil :P
It's a toy from Kenneth -- damn cute with his big head and the 2 little red horns (devil's horns la) and a very tiny body... :P I hope I can hug him to sleep at nite but to bad, I'm worried that I will tear off his head :P So, I just place the fellar next to my pillow :)


Went for marathon last weekend and it was fun! Had some volunteering work on Saturday and running for 5km on Sunday morning 7am... exhausted of course but I guess I enjoyed the most of it... Oh anyway, the marathon was called "Standard Chartered KL Marathon 2009" :P

We are preparing for the next "Shape Putrajaya Nite Run" on 25th July 2009. It's going to be a night marathon and am expecting another round of crazy and fun photo session with the gang :)
I will only be running for 5km as I wasnt trained for 10km yet... Furthermore, my legs ache everytime I jogged.. but the pain just goes away when you just be posotive and happy with what you are doing... a smile from him also will be sufficient :P

Evon's getting married next month -- going to register at the ROM. Was feeling excited about it. She invited me to join them at the ROM and I said "sure!" with a big smile :)
We do felt happy for her to be able to find the happiness that one always wanted for... Hope that is the right guy for her to go through the journey of life together..
I told this to Salina yesterday and surprisingly she asked me when is my turn? I turned to her (while she was driving) and laughed "Lama lagi la Salina, I baru je umur 24... at least 30 la"... Then she looked at me and asked me am I sure ar with 30... I just answered her "gurau jer"... The moment will come without you knowing, there's no need to crack your head over it and there is also no harm with the fact that you might be alone till the old days, without marrying anyone. There are tons of possibilities -- just smile and be happy with who you are, this is more important in life :)

There were some other things we discussed yesterday...
Accepting a person of who he or she is, will never be easy... It's all about give and take or compromising. There will always be something that we overlook in a relationship as time pass by, we got comfortable on the way we are living with it already -- forgetting the first thing that actually attracted that 2 person together. Salina told me about her story with Yoep, how they met each other and how hard it was when they are together till they got married and have kids.. It's a very valuable journey which taught me that:

1. Effective / proper communication method is vital between 2 person -- it will never works out with 2 hard headed people trying to fight who is right or wrong or 2 very soft headed person who just keep quiet and shy away when problem occurs. When one is being emotional, the other must be calm and focus on what's going wrong. It's always easy said than to be done... but at least I am trying :)
2. Whenever there's anything bothering you in a relationship, always take a deep breath and change your thinking cap from using the heart (emotion) to using your head (logic). I always did this but too bad, I was always the losing one as my head just can fight against the troubled heart of the other :P
3. Dont raise your voice whenever you talk to your partner -- it's all about respect. Dont shout, scream or whatever as this really hurts the other person alot.
4. Always be happy and smile :)
5. And many more............ cant continue.. something is troubling my mind now
   

Weird enough, as I was writing as these, I felt like crying already... dont know why... i just dont know why... Just felt that it's tough and it's not easy.. I am trying my best, my very best of not giving up...
I told Dilla the other day, I nearly give up when things went wrong that day. I was so scared -- not because of hate or anger, but I was scared when that happened.. It reminds me of my dad.. it reminds me of my dad freaking the whole family out with his anger and abusive attitudes.. I was really scared till I cried.. even till today.. I do not want to go through those anymore..

Sometimes, crying is the best method to soothe the heart... I hope it does, for me now :)

Going back to Raub tonight, driving back alone.. Lonely pulak terasa.. :P

Love ya all... Kwan! Please call me la... you still alive or not?

Love,
Shin :)